There is no genuine friendship in work

Another heavy overwhelming topic today.

IpWind told me what the other colony had been talking behind my back.

I was saddened by the way people address me.

Not only that, I was impressed by how that satay seller can twist and turn the facts and framing me for things I did not do.

Luckily there are handful of witnesses that speak the truth.

Not because of my position. I did not corrupt these witnesses. They believe in truth. 

Like X-files: The truth is out there

Maybe I am being too honest and having high hopes that there is genuine friendship in work place. Regardless position and age. I've been working in the same company since my graduation. The company was small and we worked hard together as a team. But there was competition among each other yet it was healthy and fruitful at the end of the day. Regardless how the company grows, we still stick together as a team because everyone of us has only 1 goal. That is to work hard and earn the salary.

So as I move up being a leader of a team myself. I had few rounds of setback.

Being a stern manager did not help much for the first strategy.

So I changed to become a friendly one.

Then as time goes by, I have attachment towards my team because I am dealing using the 'friendly' card.

But, because some actions by satay seller and the script writer, my team turns against me.

Maybe because I dealt the cards too well that they had forgotten I am their leader.

As things happened, they crossed the line and I exploded.

I naively thinking by exploding to them will be a warning sign before thunderstorm hits.

Again, how stupid I was.

They eventually think that I am choosing my team members. Those who listen to me will be preferred the most and those not will be condemn at work. 

This disappoint me dearly.

Though I may not be a qualified leader. But I am a leader with quality.

My mentors taught me well and never in their lesson that they taught me to go against your own leader in work and personally. Everyone has the right to a level of respect. If you disrespect your leader, please bear the consequences. But facts are twist and turn as it turns out I am a leader with preference of team members.

How dramatic.

If that is true, you should see you are sitting at the top of my preference list.

Because I sincerely guided you in every way I could and cutting your path so that it will be smoother. Of course you earn your title with your own hard work. But without a 1% of my help, I don't think you will be successful too.

Therefore, our Chinese powerful word: 飲水思源

Please do think about your actions now. How your leader will be hurt if you turn your back against her? I am disappointed by your actions and dearly hurts. I am unsure what will be my next strategy. But continue to work hard and prove myself in front of my mentor is the ultimate goal. My mentor likes me for my work. Not the friendship I created at work.

I do read books about how to be a good manager. I know I am not there yet. But being a stern and unwelcome manager is not the key to success for a team. Well, being a friendly one didn't prove to be any better. I am still pondering on how to become a good leader. Guess I have lots more to learn and develop before calling myself successful.

Today is eve of Christmas. I went to church for a celebration that is different from the previous ones. I enjoyed it because it helps to soothe my mind way off from the disappointment. I am having such a dilemma situation that even my FB status are so depressing. Just to confirm I am another emo freak.

Thank you for passing through my life both work and personal. Your presence and action is very much appreciated because I've learned a lesson from you. I do hope you will also take this as chance to mirror yourself. If you do feel bad or sorry, and want to come clean with me. You are still welcomed. But the door will not be open for you forever. Please grab the chance while you have.

Of course for script writer and that evil satay seller, you both did an amazing job by killing a genuine friendship. It's ok that you hate me. I do love that you hate me. You hate because you are jealous. Jealous the boss loves me more than you. Jealous I earn more than you. Jealous I am a manager and you are not, Jealous I have supporters but you only have your own colony. If you think I quit this drama because I give up. That is so wrong. I quit because I am here to work. Not msn-ing, creating dramas, thinking what my colony will be doing next, how to make the boss like you more than me. I'm here to work for my career. You are small as an ant. And I can kill you with just my fat lil thumb!

Adios bitches.

May you rot in your own world.

P/s: btw, if you think the above post English is hard to read. That's why you are just an exec staff and I am a manager. 

Evil eyes creeping around. But I am holding a sacred wand to KILL you off!

Finally realized how naive and stupid I was.
Trusting and believing everything I saw and heard.
Trying to judge the book by its cover.
And damn how wrong I was!

Someone was hurt and disappointed when these dramas were played. In life, we cherish the people around us, regardless friends or foes.Yet, everyone patience and integrity do have a limit. Please don't ever play too far that you had accidentally / purposely push the button. He/She will just burst off and you will not be claiming any kind of victory.

Maybe there do exist some kind of miscommunication and misunderstanding.
But, I did nothing wrong and there is no need for me to prove my innocence.
For those who know me very well, I am not that kind of person that put her own reputation and name on the chopper board. I am born to my senses that I will protect my name until the day I die and even licking on someone ass it's not an extreme act if my name is at stake!
However, once you see I care less about what you are thinking..you really had hit the button and my patience limit is over.
I am not sure what kind of games you people are trying to play. I do not bother.
But my strategy is very simple. Have faith in myself.
I put my reputation and integrity on the boss table. He is the only person I am going to impress first and last.
So, no more miss congeniality from me.
You choose to throw that, and I follow your choice.

Just a piece of advise.
Don't play with fire. You will get burn now, or maybe later or maybe way into the future.
But I swear to God, you will get burn..You will..

I ain't that easy to get over with when I am disrespect.
I had been repeating this sentence to the public. I am a person that care so much much more on my name and respect than my life. Once you disrespect me, there is no turning back for me. Unless you come clean with me on your intention.

Feel really sorry to have involve some innocent people.
For those who are feeling sorry on what you had did, I still give you chance to come clean with me.
But then, to some of you. You have no chance to even apologize. Cos you do not worth a chance.

I am a person that work with my faith and honesty.
I trusted God to guide me when facing such dramas and I trusted God to guide my boss to make the correct decision if the day come.
So, you are playing with a person, who trusted God. Have faith in God and of cos, have a great deal of respect from others that I am not that kind of drama person you think I am.

All the best to your dramas and may your dream and desire will be fulfilled by Satan wish.
Another reminder. This will not get you anywhere young ones.
Integrity, Honesty and Respect will yield a victory.

My faith and the sacred wand will protect me and my follower to kill of those evil creepy eyes.

Amen.

The Sensitive King, Idiotic Messenger and Innocent People

Last Friday was a roller coaster ride in office.
Things got real messy with the King and I am so so down and hardly getting over it.
Sigh..
It was my fault for diu-ing the boys before finding out the reason behind the stupid irrational email from the King!
My apologies to the boys.
Honestly, can you blame me? I was at the dark spot knowing nothing about the whole situation yet being warned by the King that the managers are not the ultimate boss - he is!
Duh? As if the ball is not round?!
Miscommunication is the key point of the fire started and don't blame me for blaming that messenger.
Sensitive king and a wrong messenger kill the innocent people!
Kanasai!!

Then after a good night sleep, the damn king send another electronic pigeon mail apologizing for his outburst.
How ridiculous.
Being a King, you have the right to kill and torture any innocent hearts. But you will and shall not apologize!
Cos with that, you look pathetic!
Purely pathetic!
Urgh!!
As if broken pieces of shattered heart can be mend back!

For the people who love the King, we shall rise and hail: Long Live the King

For the shattered broken hearts and dismantled figurines like us: Get Lost The King, Halleluyah!

Urgh!!!!

Filling up the blanks!!

Yeap.
Been superbly occupied by works and friends lately until I have not blog like weeks ago!
So, what had happened to me during those blank moments??
Plenty..
Work is depressing. Will come this depressing topic later.
Every weekend, we had a routine of crashing Ms Pregger's home!
Because she is alcohol and club free now, we have nothing else better to do than playing car car with my GodSon Prince Damian the Menace and singing karaoke in Ms Pregger's well equip audio room! And of course, mahjong session until wee hours.

During the Haji break, was so excited to be invited by Ms Pregger for a dinner at Tony Roma's. Turn out to be, Mr Filthy Rich's father owns it! Happy chomped down the super king size wagyu beef, all the appetizers we can order and each of every dessert. Burp!! The best part is yet to come: Free flow of Cordon Blue and Rose Moet...wth?

Too late to get the whole piece in this pic!

slurrrppppp

Burppp..we ate from 6 to 10! like a buffet style of Tony Roma's dining experience.
So waiting for Ms Pregger to get us the VIP card!
With the card..we can chomp down more food at an extremely friendly price! Hiak Hiak!

Next outing was the drinking session with Chewie, EeWa and Alan.
Another heavy dinner and drinking buffet. The bill was extremely crazy again.
So Chewie, we really gotta stop drinking crazily.
That is to take care of our health and bank!
It sounded as this was a get together session but then the main reason for EeWa to meet us was to get the juicy gossips! Well, a tales suppose to be told. As she said, she needs some colours in her life and our juicy gossips is just perfect for her dull life. ROFL

The venue for juicy gossip is our old place: Berlin
No pork knuckles so we tried the pork ribs and new German beer. Superb beer. I am so a German beer fans now. Throw away all the Heneikken/Carlsberg and all those tasteless beer. Puik!
So Oktoberfest is another dream come true!!Chewie..we need to go there and sink in all the German beer! ROFL!!

From the pictures, can see how EeWa was so into the gossip juices.
Then our ladies man, excitedly explain his life philosophy to us! Haha

Drink!!!!

Next was another drinking session where EeWa had ffk-ed us. Venue: Rainforest - Pavillion KL.

Thank you so much for the tasteless beer Carlsberg from our beloved ladies man : Alan.

No offence dear, just drinking such beer ain't Princess Piggie style no more!

Alan being VIP there, got to enjoy the view from the bar. Perfect lounge sofa seats and cool musics.

Drank too much end up puking in the toilet. Thanks to that strong Long Island Tea that was free for the ladies.

With my  - Alan. I look pale without makeup yet fresh. Ah..how lovely! ROFL

raindrops are falling on my head ...lalalalala

After all these sessions. I am trying to stay in with Frog Prince. Most sessions had excluded him so he maybe upset or worse dull in his already dull life. So last Saturday, another last day being Princess Piggie of the month, went to Li Yuan @ Ritz for breakfast with colleagues.

Too high class to take pictures. Princess Piggie needs to maintain her style ok?!

Then off to get herself a fresh look.

Was in the saloon for half of the day.

Then off to cuddly session with Frog Prince.

We head over to Lot 10 Chinese hawkers foodcourt.

Had the famous Imbi road pork noodles with pig stomach soup..

Burp!! but have to pay RM18.80 for this!!Crazy!

Then off to Uniqlo.

Haven't been there before beside browsing the fashion magazines.

But the clothing is really way low from my expectation.

Winter clothes, cashmere and wool for MALAYSIA? Hello designers..please check the climate of the country before opening the branch lor??!Can ar? Do some region research lar.

Majority are for winter. Malaysia had none except super crazy hot and wet rainy day. Still we don't need cashmere / wool..

Disappointed. Even Orlando Bloom poster on the show case didn't excite me!

Frog Prince trying to be macho

Posing with Farenheit interior design and my MJ bag!!

So, will I be in this mall again? Nah..unless MJ is opening an outlet here.

Dull place to shop and eat.

That's about it. The summary of the sparks in my dull life.