２０１３ 从新出发！

此终是华人。终觉得写部落格用华文来表达是最好，最贴心的。

每一年，我们都希望能有好开始。过个比上年更好的一年。本公主也不例外。

２０１３年　１月　１号

青蛙王子对他相爱多年的猪公主下跪求婚。在一个公主毫无心里准备时候求婚。虽然没有豪华餐厅的烛光晚餐，浪漫海滩做背景，猪公主还是甜蜜的点头。嘻嘻！因为是在凌晨时间发生，所以身边没有摄影师帮我们拍照留念。而且我们都累了。点头过没多久就上床睡觉。。
一早起来就立刻拿起电话拍个照！

很满意他挑选戒指的款式！传统的钻石戒指可能不是每个人都爱。有些女人觉得它们过时了。对我而言，传统钻石戒指就能表达带着的女人的高贵和她的优雅。不是每个人都理解这一点。现在的人都忙于追求时尚而忽略时尚该有的品味。（好像一个大设计师在说大道理！）

他说戒指该带在中指。不是很确定。有人能告诉我哪个手指才是对的？

注意:这个是求婚戒指不是订婚的噢！是有分别的！嘻嘻

青蛙王子用心良苦的在这个这么容易记住的日子求婚是因为本公对记日子没什么上心。这样本公就永远记得啦。　够贴心喔！

身边的人都很兴奋，尤其是我妈。她应该觉得【哇靠！我的女儿终于得家人了。】

２０１３是蛇年。对我们两条猪是超不好办喜事。加上现金有限，所以喜酒要等到明年未才办得到。今年只能注册然后拍婚纱照。本公很努力的在减肥。希望照片出来能漂漂亮亮的～

在开心的背后，还是有担心难过的一面。
身体开始退化。人开始老了。所以身体不听话了。出了点毛病。很努力的变健康。希望能快点恢复。没什么大问题。希望祖先保佑啊！

工作有时候顺利有时候就哎。。。
人多自然是非多。
不能在有天真容易相信人的态度。这样，还是自己吃亏。
不但吃亏，还吃死猫。
认真投入，也不够人聪明。
怪我自己还是地利人和不对呢？
打工仔永远的坎坷啊！

好啦。别再埋怨！

再从新写部落格是要为了记录开心的事。２０１３　加油！

Almost a year!

Life has been up and down as always for the past months. Everyday, with the Google toolbar showing my blog, there is always intention to click and update whatever shit that is happening. Yet, too much had happened that I cannot put everything in words to express fully.

2012 was great 80%. Work was awesome cos' it brought me places for free and meeting great deal of new people. Owned my first house in May and loving every inch of it. I am so proud of myself and my partner that we can own a place before we even reach 30s! How awesome was that?!

Then, I realized it was almost the end of 2012. I had achieved some but not much. There are plenty more unopened doors and not because there is no path, but I am afraid to do so.

So, am going to start fresh again 2013 with a resolution to do meaningful things to my life and what's more. I'm going big 3 0 this year! and yes, this blog it's a wrap for missing pieces from my life in 2012.

Let's roll the drum and I promise, promise promise promise.....2013 gonna be good updates for my blog~~


p/s: why I select such a dull picture? chinese saying:-夕阳无限好. I hope mine too!!

Friday 13th, it is seriously bad luck day

Believe me. It is a worst day after months of working in this organisation.
I think due to working in endless octopus mode and seriously loads to do, I just snapped on someone and it turn out to be the worst decision I've ever made.
I blame myself being really unprofessional and let the tense and stress get over my head which resulting of hurting another individual.
Sincerely apologized on the choice of words I chose and snapping at the wrong timing.
But, my actions are with good intention; even though it is not very welcoming.
And stupidly enough I thought, someone would have back up my intention (not the choice of words) BUT, in fact, my intention was unnecessary at all.

My whole reaction was like: What the hell? Are you people for real?

Maybe I had planted too much hope of thinking a genuine friendship can be build regardless what environment we are in. Being 29, I'm still naive.

I am ashamed and sorry for my choice of words.
Yet, I am heart broken of myself. How can I not change my mindset after months of working in this big organisation rather than sticking back to the small office where everyone work in a team spirit.
I am disappointed on over judging my own capability.
Everyone is indeed selfish when it comes to proving oneself work capability.
But, isn't team spirit is the key of work achievement?

So many words of advise from close and understanding friends of mine I've heard. The last one, actually sent me to tears. Yes, I cried because I am disappointed on myself. How I hate myself to ignore Leo personality. This is not the right time to show myself as a leader. I need time to grow and prove myself in word before I can take the lead.

Nevertheless, the awkward moment is there and it is really hard for me to treat anyone genuinely as friend in the team. The devil behind them is scary. I am still in shock on everyone's reaction on what had happened today. So, again strategy changed and constant reminder is set to ensure I will not repeat the same silly mistake AGAIN.

And for sure, check out the calendar when it comes to Friday.
Friday 13th..for real~~

So many unfinished projects..and many new ones ahead!?!

This is so embarrassing.
Planned way too much, and most projects executed half way.
Princess Piggie is just too lazy to finish it.

So with a day off tomorrow (FINALLY, God hear my prayers) am going to finished at least 1.
Posting of albums into FB and at least make a summarize post of India trip. Both projects postponed wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy too long. "Mempersiasuikan"

Set aside unfinished projects, I had planned for new ones.
Brain is flooded with brand new ideas.
How much more can I take?

Let's see..

原来那团火还没熄

以为离开以前那小鱼缸，游到这个大湖，我对事和人的态度会因求生意志而妥协。一直以为自己的吸引力很强。在任何地方都会找到自己的小天地。真的是很阿娇咯。天真到。。
我真的无法忍受一天又一天的退让换来的是你这个死三八一次又一次的在我背后刹一刀。这个不懂是对女还是对男有兴趣的老板，又一次一次的帮死三八解围。他妈的不公平！
真的已经很努力在忍。看到她，我很想哭。流的泪是超热的！因为超读烂！！
这个工司的高程，你们别浪费人才。我们能做能熬的都很用功在做，在表现。别只看外表。瞪大你们的眼，看看我们吧？快死啦！

9th months and i made it

I'm proud of myself. Though there will be hills over hills of things to learn and be better. But just 9 months, I proved myself worth every penny this company is paying me. Hah! Still a very long journey ahead. But I'm so gonna ready for it. And for those ex employer, potential employer, see what you had missed?! Too bad. Current company had owned my pride.

男人，你为何那么残忍？

昨天，很香港连续剧的桥段发生在我的好姐妹身上。她的男人提出要和她离婚。让我深深的痛恨这个残忍的男人。她为他生了两个可爱的baby，甚至为了这个家放弃她精彩的青春。换来的竟然是满面泪水和心痛还有一句「离婚书办好，欠的是你的签名」

难道当年你对她的浪漫花语，体贴关心，你测地的忘了吗？这个残忍的男人！每次看到她伤心的泪水，我的心仿佛被人插一刀。她是个美女，家境也不赖。前途无量。就是为了那爱你的心。放弃了一切。

昨天我费尽心机安抚她。说些鼓励和安慰的话。但是真的没什么还可以说了。很难过。

这个男人离婚的原因是身体出了毛病。听到这，我也为这个男人感到担心。但是他后面接着说，如果真的没时间，我想要回我的自由。

他妈的！竟然这段婚姻对他而言是拿走他的自由。不是因为爱。他这个理由比有第三者加入一样残忍。 最痛心的是她。最无辜的是哪两个小孩。

她能做的就是一天拖一天。迟迟都不签那份离婚书。身为好友的我，也只能从短信传达我的关心。安慰的话我说尽了。希望老天爷能搞题贵手，别在让她流泪了。

你这个残忍的男人，你也太自私了吧。真希望下半辈子为她做牛做马！报答她！

以上发生在白色情人节。在这么浪漫的节日我们不是因为甜蜜而流泪。人生真是很奇妙。以为一切理所当然时，总是会有突发事件发生。昨天很灰暗。和我的心情一样。

这一切让我领悟到，爱情靠不住。男人更加靠不住！ 为什么我们要在这个冷血爱情战争上拼到你死我活？爱情根本不甜蜜。觉得它是人类拿来消磨时间的游戏。

搞到我，对自己的未来在爱情方面不是期待。而是负担。到最后，才知道，我是输不起的。如果以上事情发生在我身上。我肯定崩溃。

所以，这一刹那，我对我的男人的期待消失了。不是不爱。而是越期待却会越失望。我还是回去五年前的我。自私的我。只爱自己的我。

今天，还是阴天。心情还是灰暗I