If You Are Not Winning, You Are Just A LOSER!

Nothing can compare the stress level of clearing other person's job.

I truly understand and feel really sorry for who ever have to take up all that shits left by me.

Honestly, I was not in a good so-called 'handover state of mind' during the last few weeks of my service there. I wish to maintain my professionalism but you cannot imagine how disrespectful treatment I received from the bosses during my notice period. Nothing compares my final dignity. No matter how good I was in meeting the deadlines previously, they had press the DELETE button the moment I tendered. Every hard work of mine are a total garbage to them. 

Finally I departed.

Like 2 weeks now.

I've already prepared that every mistakes I made in that previous firm will be zoom in by everyone just to get the pieces outta me.

Every single thing happened within my prediction.

My work being condemned, my team members being complained and what ever mistakes I made was like a huge issue to everyone there. Just to show how great that I left the company because the bosses think they are better without me.

Never I've feel so important in life looking back.

Never I've wondered this previous job scope was a huge long list.

So as I departed, I wish everyone the best in their future undertakings and especially to those that will be replacing me.

It's great to see internal promotion and finally anyone will be thinking: Finally, that big ass is out the door!

Never I was reluctant to answer questions and picking up calls from previous clients/colleagues.

However, as I replayed back what I did in those years I took over other people shits, I don't recall that I asked queries after queries and to the extend that need people to spoon feed me how to get things done.

There are lots of books out there as guide to become a leader. Go grab them and give yourself some reading.

If that's too expensive, go Google some articles.

No matter how, you agreed to take up this responsibility that is the choice you made.

Last time, I used to said: Like I have a choice?

Honestly, as recently, I have so much time reading and alone thinking of my future and personality built up, life is with a choice. Maybe commitments in this material world bound us down to take whatever shits are left still, you gotta make a good hell situation out of it.

Adaption to new environment is a survival skill and not many can survive.

But back to that old sentence, if you don't choose to survive, you choose to die? Like I have a choice??

Eating back you own words right?

Maybe I am being judgmental towards you.

How can I not? Tell me!

My ex team members are not the best batch of staffs so what if they have their flaws?

As a leader, you suppose to find out their flaws and DEAL with it!

Stop complaining and get things done.

If you don't know, suck it up!

I don't know how to lead either! But still I survived the last 2 years!

You differentiating 'your team' when talking to my ex team members, do you know how demotivating that sounds to the bunch of juniors under you?

I LEFT the firm and you took the damn team up. So now THEY are your team members! 

For goodness sake!!

Sooner you will be losing a team that you think they can't work with you.

Great.

I think is the other way round: 

You can't work with them!

That's sound better! ROFL.

Well, let the future show you how "USELESS" these team members are.

And replace with the young clans that you think are useful because they can work with you.

You really don't know what's happening in the real market now eh?

Of course, you can quit this position after all.

You can just tell the boss: I'm not up for it. So I quit!

Well, few more grands in the bank account make a good deal. Maybe you will think twice before quitting.

Never I condemn anyone capability of making a great future. I never judge till that extend. I know my grounds. There are boundaries that I cannot cross.

Anyhow, that is just my op.

Maybe if you get the chance to read this blog, you probably hate me for not being helpful.

But,the more drama you create, the happier I am.

Now, my team loves me more because of you.

Client loves me more because of you.

So, either you work hard to get to the winning section, or else, you are just a LOSER!

Roll the drum!

Yes! 3 days of gruesome training were finally over.
Brain a little malfunction because of information over load.
Too much info to catch up in so little time.
There were even moments that I was in total LOST mode. The speaker spoke too fast and with a great deal of foreign accent! Which means Middle East / Australia / Europe / India. Culture is rich as well as the accent!
With my so-called hearing problem, that make situation worse.

The 3 days gruesome training do had some awesome moment. The favorite quote of the managers and VPs are open communication and performance driven reward. Totally in love with these quotes and fit perfectly in my working philosophy that I believe in. However, as the personal manager touched on the level of assessment and points to achieve, nervous sucks in and my face turn GREEN. We have to achieve at least "Meet Expectation" scoring so that we can smoothly progress in our future. If falls below this level, *gulp* they either postponed your confirmation or worse, terminates you.
Maahhhh..really scared on this.

But was still ok looking at all friendly trainers that approached us.
However, as the end of today, I was told to meet my team leader whom a foreigner and oh my how fierce he looks. *gulp*
He shows no interest to talk to me further. Hope this was because he was occupied with something else.
And his instruction was to meet me next morning and my job will be discuss then.

Phew...I wish he can be both my mentor and leader in my future. (Mentor is for my ACCA)
And I hope to meet his expectation in 3 months time and if can, show a performance that exceeds his expectation.

I left the old company with pride and a promise not to turn back there..Or else I'll be deem as a loser to my family and ex-boss. You made my departure a tough one so turning back make me looks like a shit. So I ain't gonna do that. Never. So I must achieve future boss expectation no matter what.

Nothing can stop me!!!

First Day Reporting to a MNC

I was over whelmed with things happened in my previous company. Those unpleasant moments shared with the bosses can consider a pure nightmare that I wish I'm like a three year old kid. So that I can cry and parents will come and hug me and tell they will go away. I'm not going to brag about how ill treated I was by the bosses. What had passed already history. I need to live in present and hoping for future.

So after all these years serving one individual boss and under the same roof., familiarity with environment mould me to a person that looks tough both in and out side. But, no one knows how shaky I was this morning.

Woke up freaking early at 6.50am (alarm went off at 6.30am but my bed dragging habit still lied deep down in me. Only managed to wake up 20 mins later)
Took a hot bath, getting all dressed up with new dress bought in Bangkok, new bag and fresh make up to make my day. But the nervousness killed my appetite for breakfast. So I end up having an empty stomach to work.

Meeting new colleagues and peers was something new after 6 years under a same roof. And being an assistant manager, I did not approach newbies but they do.
Here I am, making new friends and starting conversation. It was hard at the beginning and I felt so old in the whole group. It was as if those new colleagues were young and fresh from universities.
But as we get to know each other, most of them had the same number of years of working experience. I do not know why I was intimidate by them.ROFL. Blame the nervousness!

Next, we were handed a bag of stuffs that fascinate me till now.

1) Recycle shopping bag with company name - Moderate size but good for shopping
2) New Pilot mechanical pencil come with lead (in plastic wrap some more) - Impressed. All these years, I bought my own pencil. Old firm only supply 2B pencil
3) Long ruler - Impressed. We need to request and reason why a long ruler is required in old firm. Here is given free of charge!
4) Stapler (come with the box) - Should had left my old red stapler which was inherit from my previous senior to my ex-colleagues. Didn't expect to get one FREE here!
5) Post It Note - I was truly surprised when  saw this stack of Post It Note. Remember when my old HR told me "why do you need Post It Note?" and "we don't supply that!"
6) A4 writing pad - Brand new writing pad for me to jot down every important notes during the training. Forget recycle papers please!!
7) Canon calculator - Brand new 12 digits calculator

All the above were FREE of charge and we are not required to RETURN it back when we leave this company. Another ooh-aah moment for me.

Next ooh-aah moment was getting a new laptop equipped with wireless mouse and brand new bag. Here, I learned we can lock our laptop like we lock our dog!! But too much security and NOT TO DOs using company laptop. Guess it will not stop me getting my iMac.

Third ooh-aah moment was the free lunch at a restaurant with all VPs.
Surprised. Didn't expect they will sit and eat with us. Tell us stories of their past experience and how they travel from one country to the other. Just can't wait for my turn! But I took this lunch time as an opportunity to shine myself. VP basically just look at me while talking as I am the only one making eye contact while the rest busy eating. Love his quote: No question is stupid. So ask every question you have! Brilliant. At least I know he won't answer me with: Abuthen? Like I used to hear.

Fourth ooh-aah moment was the speech by our Hub Manager. Short yet delivered every significant points that I wish I can achieve. Again another brilliant quote: We do not have any discrimination in our people. We appraise our people based on performance. If you work hard, you will deserve your reward. Nonsense to age/look/colour of skin. BRILLIANT!

Fifth ooh-aah moment, was combination of everything I saw and heard today:
- The company has its own Google portal. I was like: Seriously?
- Pool table for unlimited access
- Free usage of gym
- Free flow of oreos cookies

Phewwwww....what a long list!

Anyhow, managed to get in touch with my department. Things change..as expected.
My Paris dream..not going to happen. I'm serving Australia and Papua New Guinea instead.
Erm...I don't mind to travel there just a lil' disappointed.
Finger crossed!

But, the training has a price to pay though..we need to take test and MUST pass in order to achieve certain KPI. Again..something new that I need to get use to.

Tomorrow is my second day reporting to MNC and still more training to go.
Keep you peeps posted!

Bits and pieces of Goodbye

Collaborate both Nor and my farewell with our Muslim staffs.

Nor was held in Makan Makan Place Double Tree..Food was great...

As my favourite saying: Good food Good People = Great Life!

Agnes + Fun Fun + Soh Kuan

Makan Makan Place

Random shot via old time mode

Me and Agnes

Soh Kuan who was also leaving TA

With Fun Fun

Malay Food Corner

Swimming Pool View

Fun Fun posing for my shot

Me and Nor

Superb Indian cuisine..

So-so Chinese cuisine

My favourite soup

Unlimited access to my fav Lychees!

Our Kak Dayah

Group soup

The day with Nor end with another belly carrying out of the door session.
Cannot imagine myself stuffing food again..
Yet end my day with another round of Jap food with Ailing and the gang.
No wonder we all are PIG!!

Ai Ling +Fun Fun

Chew and Me

Eye Bag Shot!

Chew, this is a lovely shot!

Next, was my farewell with Hidayah. Love her for being there sharing special moments.
And thanks to Fun Fun and Sharon for joining the fun..
The warmth of love and laughter from your girls, made me special.

Kak Dayah specially bought this magnificent jewelry box. Love it baby! Will definitely one of my great props in new house!

The box and scarves too!!

Hadramawt serve authentic Arab cuisine. If you are a lamb person. Please do give this place a try. The lamb kebab is finger licking good.

Arab tea - filled with great mint aroma. Sure make you feel comfy in the belly

Salta - combination of rice + potato + minced lamb +gravy. That serves well with  the bread

Favourite bread!

One portion rice that can keep two big belly full! This is called Mande Rice. Pronounce as Mandi...

Fruits platter. The Mango and Watermelon were super sweet. The rest, too sour!

With my diva Kak Dayah. Love you girl!

There you go..
I had a great life because all of you above.
Love my life as I love you all.
Muah Muah Muah