It's June for God sake!

uhuh..coming to end of May soon and yet so many things to achieve in work!
How sucks!
Anyhow, due to improvement of man power, manage to skip work in weekend and still get the chance for a short getaway with friends and mom..ahhhhh
But my so called honeymoon will be over soon as the jobs pouring in like a tsunami...
how shitty is that!

But, after complaining and complaining, i'm still working for this firm..and still doing this sick job?
what does this means?
I'm an asshole?
Nah...just a dog trying to get the bone!
sick..sick and sick..
everyone says happy in life is the key to healthy life..
but purlease...don't talk about happy if you do not have the money!
I need the MONEY!!

No one has the say EXCEPT me!

Why it is always like this huh?
Why we are to be blame??
When we put effort to make ends meet, people don't see it...
And our effort not appreciated...
We try and try and try..still could not make it better, we finally give up and decided not to have more faith..because it is not worth it..
Then when it has reach to the patience limit, we exploded..we get angry..we cursed and complained..but..was acknowledged of taking someone attention and limelight!
WTF?

No one has the say of how fucking much effort I put in to make this friendship worth except me!
No one has the better judgement than myself!
But I was pushed to the edge of giving up and the next thing I know, I had made a conclusion..
NOT WORTH IT!
But then, why am I to blame?

Well, call me drama queen then!
But I worth having that drama ok!

It's that person big day and no one have the right to ruin it..
wow...then my big days in the past??? Who ruined it? Ok basically you don't because you don't even bother to show up! And save your gift! It's a joke ok!! You are making me looks like an idiot more than a friend...

URGH!!!! spare me mercy ok..
I am not happy with work today..
the stupid client office was freaking hot without air cond and not even a fan is available..
then work was unsettled..tonnes of email to reply..
Decided to off work early just to make it on time..
then one tiny sms make me explode..not so much of the organiser..i'm sorry if it had troubled you..but..i'm really not having a good day..
I'm starving..and fat people don't like the feeling of HUNGER!

Anyway, I'm not a total bitch that just blew up ppl's big day..once i finished complaint..the next minute i will have that smiley face on..
But..just dont keep me from complaining and throwing my temper off..
i'm complaining to different ppl which definitely will not affect the whole evening..

Sigh...too late..the scar is there d...
I'm sorry i blow your plan..
But..really..nothing sucks than keeping a drama queen having her drama on!

Almost a f3cking year!

I didnt mean to update my blog at all, but was browsing thru family and friends ones...and suddenly came to my blog and the latest post was in Jul'2009..wtheck?

Am I that old to forget my precious blog, or just too busy to keep it updated like everyone else?
I prefers the latter one! ROFL~~

From the last post, many things had happened and my life is really a roller coaster ride!
I always pray for the best in my life but reality will never be as you wish!
The worst was the fire in my house during the 2nd day of CNY ==
Never ever I wanted to blame my mom for being careless...it made me realised how old her mom had age..She is not that active hippy mom back in 10 years. So, I gotta be more and more careful about the house, the family, mom and everything!

Life sucks at work..
It really taking a toll on my self motivation.
I had stopped talking positively to everyone about my work~
I had stopped persuading myself to work harder~
and the best part, I had stopped working as hard as last year.
Not to say I hate the job...but it's the people I hate!
I hate talking bullshit and over promising
I hate being a dog to my boss!
But nothing more I hate than not having afford the Prada bag!
So..just gotta suck it up and continue being a dog~~

Office drama nvr end!
Being a typical LEO..I love the DRAMA!
I love being the center of attention~
It's just TYPICAL...
Anyway, heart sunks as more bad news coming in from her boss~
Never ending bad news and never ending scolding..
If I am that sucks..please FIRE me!
Let me go..and die alone in a corner!
Or just shoot me!
Kanasai..

Been spending alot of money lately to compensate the loneliness in office war!
Spending money in girls trip..girls night out and of cos shopping!!

My boyfriend is trying his best to keep an eye on me going as a shopaholic..and to be honest, he is successful so far..until....his girlfriend get on hold with shopping online!
Wahahahaha..and she is doing it during office hours!
Oh my dear, you cannot stop me filling up the wardrobe...

Before i end, wanna summarise my 2010 plan:-

1) Birthday bash @ Dusun - sponsor by boyfriend
2) Girls R&R trip @ Phuket + Krabi - gonna get burn by the sun again!
3) Mommy daughter trip @ Shanghai EXPO - SHOPPING!!!
4) New Canon camera
5) Prada wallet
6) Pass her stupid ACCA - 1 paper will do
7) Increase salary
8) Performance bonus

Bah~~~~~
So many things to achieve and do with sooooo freaking little money!
Finger crossed bah!