After days of consideration, I had finally made up my mind to take the final step!
I had been working very hard to earn every little penny from the job.
Yet, I was addressed of not hardworking enough.
Still, I was like a hypnotised person to agree with all of such saying.
As time went on, my strength, my moral, my motivation had been slowly fade away into my shadow as I walked down the path I chose.
I never realised how much I had lost in this race.
I had been chasing the time as though 24 hours a day, 7 days a week and 12 months a year is not enough to complete my work.
I never realised I did put a stop to all surrounding me in order for me to become whom I always thought I want to be.
And when reality hit me, it hit me right onto my face.
Hard and loud!
I regretted the words I told my daddy.
How I wish I can turn back time.
To had put a stop on my career so that I can have more time with him.
There is a saying: Human being is selfish, as we take things for granted!
This so true!
I regretted I put a stop to the time I can have with him in order for me to move up in my career.
How I wish I never say the words I said before closing the door and left him alone at home.
I am so truely regretting all this!
Yes, you may say I should have move on as there is nothing much I can do.
Well, I agreed.
But my hardwork and commitment was not being appreciated.
Beside the fixed income, I received nothing but intolerable demand.
It seems that he lost his track of time or place his memory somewhere that he had forgotten that I am only a staff whom promoted too fast too soon.
It was already my best out of me in order to make up to the shortfall.
My development is too slow..and maybe he is to anxious about it.
I rest my case here..
Had enough..totally!
Daddy left and now mommy is the only closest family I had.
Yet with work, I barely see or visit her.
I am so sorry, mom.
I know you are lonely, but I need to get back to work
That is the common excuse from me, and I hang up even before she able to say GoodBye.
She never shows it, but I know she is sad.
Sad to see her daughter working so hard.
Sad to see her daughter to spend her time working rather than talking to her.
Mommy, sorry. Please forgive me.
I will never let you feel this way anymore.
I had made a promise to myself.
So, here I go..I had chose to take a turn and move on to another path for my future.
Dare not to say it will be way better compare to the current one, but I am positive that my life will definitely be better!!
Wish me all the best friend!!
