Friday 13th, it is seriously bad luck day

Believe me. It is a worst day after months of working in this organisation.
I think due to working in endless octopus mode and seriously loads to do, I just snapped on someone and it turn out to be the worst decision I've ever made.
I blame myself being really unprofessional and let the tense and stress get over my head which resulting of hurting another individual.
Sincerely apologized on the choice of words I chose and snapping at the wrong timing.
But, my actions are with good intention; even though it is not very welcoming.
And stupidly enough I thought, someone would have back up my intention (not the choice of words) BUT, in fact, my intention was unnecessary at all.

My whole reaction was like: What the hell? Are you people for real?

Maybe I had planted too much hope of thinking a genuine friendship can be build regardless what environment we are in. Being 29, I'm still naive.

I am ashamed and sorry for my choice of words.
Yet, I am heart broken of myself. How can I not change my mindset after months of working in this big organisation rather than sticking back to the small office where everyone work in a team spirit.
I am disappointed on over judging my own capability.
Everyone is indeed selfish when it comes to proving oneself work capability.
But, isn't team spirit is the key of work achievement?

So many words of advise from close and understanding friends of mine I've heard. The last one, actually sent me to tears. Yes, I cried because I am disappointed on myself. How I hate myself to ignore Leo personality. This is not the right time to show myself as a leader. I need time to grow and prove myself in word before I can take the lead.

Nevertheless, the awkward moment is there and it is really hard for me to treat anyone genuinely as friend in the team. The devil behind them is scary. I am still in shock on everyone's reaction on what had happened today. So, again strategy changed and constant reminder is set to ensure I will not repeat the same silly mistake AGAIN.

And for sure, check out the calendar when it comes to Friday.
Friday 13th..for real~~

So many unfinished projects..and many new ones ahead!?!

This is so embarrassing.
Planned way too much, and most projects executed half way.
Princess Piggie is just too lazy to finish it.

So with a day off tomorrow (FINALLY, God hear my prayers) am going to finished at least 1.
Posting of albums into FB and at least make a summarize post of India trip. Both projects postponed wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy too long. "Mempersiasuikan"

Set aside unfinished projects, I had planned for new ones.
Brain is flooded with brand new ideas.
How much more can I take?

Let's see..