Cos u're amazing..Just the way you are!

Loving my CNY long break.
With no traffic and work, just sodas, chips and family time! Ah..beats off all the greatest vacation!
The first day of CNY, I was a bit emo. Seeing mom so happy and chippy dressing up and getting ready to celebrate her CNY makes me miss my dad even more!
How amazing it will be if he is still here with us!
Nevertheless, I wiped the tears and joined mom in dressing up and getting ready to take the road to what we used to call Grandma House. Which is now, Uncle Kayu's house.
Been staying close with mom for the first till fourth day of CNY. Just to make sure she has me all the time she wanted! To compensate the loss time that I chose to spent with work and friends instead of her.
Makes me hate my job even more!
Can I just opt for being a full time blogger yet earning the same amount of income?
ROFL..dream lar!

Then off for gambling and makan session with friends.
Not a very good year to gamble for me tho...
Lose a few hundreds and how I hope this amount of money can go directly to I-Want-A-Prada Fund!
Credits piling up and so little resources to pay it all off.

This CNY was a quiet one. At least better than last year fire tragedy!
ROFL..Mom is more cautious in burning and lighting up prayer's stuffs now. Thank God for the warning!

Anyway, I am sooooo into Bruno Mars songs nowadays.
My head is full of his songs and anywhere I go, I will sing along..
Loving all the songs in his CD
Just the way you are is just one of the bestest in his album.
You all should listen to : Marry You and Lazy Song!
Great lyrics!!!

Life Updates!

Life is pretty enjoyable PERSONALLY!

Been trying hard to organize some outing with colleagues and friends to fill up the extra time AND De-Stress!

So planned the Ketam Trip with colleagues and my photography skill is tested. I'm so loving my G12 and polishing up my skill from time to time though~~

At the Jetty of Ketam and trying to capture the eagle

At the Fishing Village

This reminds me of my roots. Loving the old stuffs now!

Old Street

The marvelous SKY and Sea - the creation of God! (minus the smelly sea water tho)

Using Vivid Color Mode 

Kinda perfect group shot (cos one is the photographer)

Even with cap and sunglass - cannot protect myself being burned by the sun!

After weekend in Ketam, I had a stressful business trip in Singapore. Working something not sure of and without precise guidance is terrible! Every minute is as dreadful as listening to Miley Cyrus sings. Ewww..But was enjoying the shopping spree tho~~

Ion Orchard Beautiful Escalator

SGD 29 coat! Sweet!!!

Special thanks to V-Queen for her relative great HOST service!

Shopping was superb and Big Thanks to the great hospitality from Ron and Agnes. The great sumptuous food from Ron and excellent shopping tips from Agnes. I end up burning a big OZONE hole in my pocket.

Hope to go there once again for absolute shopping spree...

Then weekdays passed with meeting deadline, entertaining client and answer the never ending demand from my bosses. While Chew busy setting up the Hen's Night for Yiling. The food was just average and I wont opt for another try. Then our theme is great and we are really outstanding among the crowd. But then, with more outgoing crowd, the night will be way better. Asian still cannot accept the "Hen's Night" concept. Booo to Asian! Was surprise by the creativity from the organisers. Hope mine (if ever there will be one) will be just a Spa getaway with the girls. Unless you can promise the crowd is super outgoing and join the fun!

It's Black & Bunny Theme (fringe too long - should get a hair cut!)

I end my weekend with Nelly & Hanson Wedding at Six Happiness. Great food (except for the fish) and private ceremony. The bride and groom smiling happily. What a wonderful way to end my weekend, welcoming my hectic work schedule on Monday! *Yawn*

The wedding of Nelly and Hanson

Another weekend to go before celebrating the Chinese New Year. Most probably will end up crashing Auntie Jane house playing mahjong and car car with Damian. Kind of broke due to overspend. Bonus Gone down the drain and hoping salary will make some ends meet..

Will keep my blog posted with events!

It's been a while

Was so crazy rushing deadlines and occupied by shopping spree lately till there is no time to keep this blog full of information bout my life here..Personally and at work.

Really sigh-ing every moment in office.

Work is not giving me any enthusiasm anymore. As I do not feel contented with responsibility and reward. Many say things will get better and I just need to be patience.

No one understand the reason for me to stay here with the same boss.

In beginning 2010, he is still the mentor in my career life and I am grateful to have him. But as clock tickling and dollar sign impact is getting bigger and bigger on him, he totally lose it. My faith is no longer staying with this mentor.

Now, he is just a boss. And I am just a staff.

Many think other team is working as hard as mine and thus reward on the same basis is a fair treatment. To me, this is totally not. I had the first firm PLC audit and second PLC is also mine. I had to deal with the SC and AOB and FRS and the other team still talking about small enterprise audit. Work load just the same. From job allocation to chasing payment from client.
Really from A-Z!!

Yet, you are rewarding the same amount!You told me the reason is because I am not qualified.
This is rubbish! The other team is not too and why this same sentence is not applicable to them?
Your used to be motivation words had now turn to rubbish to me.
I am so influenced by the dollar sign. Thanks to you!

This year reward it's still the same.

Ip Wind said: let's wait till 26 of January. See what he will come up to us.

Honestly, I have no hope nor faith anymore.

I am so disappointed. My hard work on creating the PLC work and GAI is equivalent of someone doing small piece audit. I am not saying my work is perfect. But still, I am the one who started it!

Thanks to the opportunity for the business trip to Singapore. The experience is worth it. It concludes on how small I am and how big the market out there.
I am a hardworking staff with half useful brain and knowledge. I deserve way better treatment than all of these.

After completing these 2 PLC for 2011, it should be the end of my journey here. Not to say to have more faith in him, but rather polishing up my audit in PLC so that my CV looks better.

To my team, you peeps are great. Please don't let the above post influence your judgment on your career with this firm. The first 3 years are always sweet. Enjoy but pack you bag after that! ROFL

Frog Prince sure said, I will not leave this firm until the day I die.
Even you do not understand me.
That is even more heartbroken.
Sigh...
But this also shows how different I am to the others.
Boss, you once said this: no one is irreplaceable. Staff comes and goes.

You lost my sifu once. She is hard to deal with but I truly agree she is a good staff to work with.
Now, you will be losing me.
I am not saying, I am irreplaceable. But I can confirm, you can never find a staff work this hard like me.

Hmmph!

好久不見, Daddy

Dedicated to my memories with my dad.

Amazingly touching lyrics.

I miss you daddy..

There is no genuine friendship in work

Another heavy overwhelming topic today.

IpWind told me what the other colony had been talking behind my back.

I was saddened by the way people address me.

Not only that, I was impressed by how that satay seller can twist and turn the facts and framing me for things I did not do.

Luckily there are handful of witnesses that speak the truth.

Not because of my position. I did not corrupt these witnesses. They believe in truth. 

Like X-files: The truth is out there

Maybe I am being too honest and having high hopes that there is genuine friendship in work place. Regardless position and age. I've been working in the same company since my graduation. The company was small and we worked hard together as a team. But there was competition among each other yet it was healthy and fruitful at the end of the day. Regardless how the company grows, we still stick together as a team because everyone of us has only 1 goal. That is to work hard and earn the salary.

So as I move up being a leader of a team myself. I had few rounds of setback.

Being a stern manager did not help much for the first strategy.

So I changed to become a friendly one.

Then as time goes by, I have attachment towards my team because I am dealing using the 'friendly' card.

But, because some actions by satay seller and the script writer, my team turns against me.

Maybe because I dealt the cards too well that they had forgotten I am their leader.

As things happened, they crossed the line and I exploded.

I naively thinking by exploding to them will be a warning sign before thunderstorm hits.

Again, how stupid I was.

They eventually think that I am choosing my team members. Those who listen to me will be preferred the most and those not will be condemn at work. 

This disappoint me dearly.

Though I may not be a qualified leader. But I am a leader with quality.

My mentors taught me well and never in their lesson that they taught me to go against your own leader in work and personally. Everyone has the right to a level of respect. If you disrespect your leader, please bear the consequences. But facts are twist and turn as it turns out I am a leader with preference of team members.

How dramatic.

If that is true, you should see you are sitting at the top of my preference list.

Because I sincerely guided you in every way I could and cutting your path so that it will be smoother. Of course you earn your title with your own hard work. But without a 1% of my help, I don't think you will be successful too.

Therefore, our Chinese powerful word: 飲水思源

Please do think about your actions now. How your leader will be hurt if you turn your back against her? I am disappointed by your actions and dearly hurts. I am unsure what will be my next strategy. But continue to work hard and prove myself in front of my mentor is the ultimate goal. My mentor likes me for my work. Not the friendship I created at work.

I do read books about how to be a good manager. I know I am not there yet. But being a stern and unwelcome manager is not the key to success for a team. Well, being a friendly one didn't prove to be any better. I am still pondering on how to become a good leader. Guess I have lots more to learn and develop before calling myself successful.

Today is eve of Christmas. I went to church for a celebration that is different from the previous ones. I enjoyed it because it helps to soothe my mind way off from the disappointment. I am having such a dilemma situation that even my FB status are so depressing. Just to confirm I am another emo freak.

Thank you for passing through my life both work and personal. Your presence and action is very much appreciated because I've learned a lesson from you. I do hope you will also take this as chance to mirror yourself. If you do feel bad or sorry, and want to come clean with me. You are still welcomed. But the door will not be open for you forever. Please grab the chance while you have.

Of course for script writer and that evil satay seller, you both did an amazing job by killing a genuine friendship. It's ok that you hate me. I do love that you hate me. You hate because you are jealous. Jealous the boss loves me more than you. Jealous I earn more than you. Jealous I am a manager and you are not, Jealous I have supporters but you only have your own colony. If you think I quit this drama because I give up. That is so wrong. I quit because I am here to work. Not msn-ing, creating dramas, thinking what my colony will be doing next, how to make the boss like you more than me. I'm here to work for my career. You are small as an ant. And I can kill you with just my fat lil thumb!

Adios bitches.

May you rot in your own world.

P/s: btw, if you think the above post English is hard to read. That's why you are just an exec staff and I am a manager. 

Evil eyes creeping around. But I am holding a sacred wand to KILL you off!

Finally realized how naive and stupid I was.
Trusting and believing everything I saw and heard.
Trying to judge the book by its cover.
And damn how wrong I was!

Someone was hurt and disappointed when these dramas were played. In life, we cherish the people around us, regardless friends or foes.Yet, everyone patience and integrity do have a limit. Please don't ever play too far that you had accidentally / purposely push the button. He/She will just burst off and you will not be claiming any kind of victory.

Maybe there do exist some kind of miscommunication and misunderstanding.
But, I did nothing wrong and there is no need for me to prove my innocence.
For those who know me very well, I am not that kind of person that put her own reputation and name on the chopper board. I am born to my senses that I will protect my name until the day I die and even licking on someone ass it's not an extreme act if my name is at stake!
However, once you see I care less about what you are thinking..you really had hit the button and my patience limit is over.
I am not sure what kind of games you people are trying to play. I do not bother.
But my strategy is very simple. Have faith in myself.
I put my reputation and integrity on the boss table. He is the only person I am going to impress first and last.
So, no more miss congeniality from me.
You choose to throw that, and I follow your choice.

Just a piece of advise.
Don't play with fire. You will get burn now, or maybe later or maybe way into the future.
But I swear to God, you will get burn..You will..

I ain't that easy to get over with when I am disrespect.
I had been repeating this sentence to the public. I am a person that care so much much more on my name and respect than my life. Once you disrespect me, there is no turning back for me. Unless you come clean with me on your intention.

Feel really sorry to have involve some innocent people.
For those who are feeling sorry on what you had did, I still give you chance to come clean with me.
But then, to some of you. You have no chance to even apologize. Cos you do not worth a chance.

I am a person that work with my faith and honesty.
I trusted God to guide me when facing such dramas and I trusted God to guide my boss to make the correct decision if the day come.
So, you are playing with a person, who trusted God. Have faith in God and of cos, have a great deal of respect from others that I am not that kind of drama person you think I am.

All the best to your dramas and may your dream and desire will be fulfilled by Satan wish.
Another reminder. This will not get you anywhere young ones.
Integrity, Honesty and Respect will yield a victory.

My faith and the sacred wand will protect me and my follower to kill of those evil creepy eyes.

Amen.

The Sensitive King, Idiotic Messenger and Innocent People

Last Friday was a roller coaster ride in office.
Things got real messy with the King and I am so so down and hardly getting over it.
Sigh..
It was my fault for diu-ing the boys before finding out the reason behind the stupid irrational email from the King!
My apologies to the boys.
Honestly, can you blame me? I was at the dark spot knowing nothing about the whole situation yet being warned by the King that the managers are not the ultimate boss - he is!
Duh? As if the ball is not round?!
Miscommunication is the key point of the fire started and don't blame me for blaming that messenger.
Sensitive king and a wrong messenger kill the innocent people!
Kanasai!!

Then after a good night sleep, the damn king send another electronic pigeon mail apologizing for his outburst.
How ridiculous.
Being a King, you have the right to kill and torture any innocent hearts. But you will and shall not apologize!
Cos with that, you look pathetic!
Purely pathetic!
Urgh!!
As if broken pieces of shattered heart can be mend back!

For the people who love the King, we shall rise and hail: Long Live the King

For the shattered broken hearts and dismantled figurines like us: Get Lost The King, Halleluyah!

Urgh!!!!