5 in 72 hours

The job was so demanding.
Now already 10.01pm @ Sunday.
I had been working for the past 72 hours with only 5 hours of sleep in total.
Oh man.
Her words and screaming still ringing in my head.

"You don't know what you are doing at all"
"Do you understand?"
"I will complain to your boss"
"If you don't know, just say lar...."

Then she was smashing stuffs on her table...
Stomping out of her office..
Screaming " I treated you as friend how could you do this to me????"

The whole department look at me with a pity look.
But I look at myself with an anger + depressed + disappointed look
I remember while driving back home, I cried helplessly claiming myself for being stupid and inefficient to meet client request.
I felt so ashamed of myself for being as an assistant manager but with little exposure.
I really unaware of a listed comprehensive consolidation work, tight announcement deadline and related stuffs.
I failed.
I tarnished my whole image of being an assistant manager.

In the end, client was so serious of complaining to my boss that I am uncapable for this job.
As being honest as I am, I text my boss for what had happened.
Apologizing that the client might call him to complain.
After 10 mins, my mobile rang.
It was my boss.
Gosh...

"What happened?"
".....Sorry....."
"It's ok..what is the complicated issues about?"
And then I explained one by one
"I so panic, I suppose to have settled everything in 3 days. But the work is actually a week work"
"Don't worry, as I already told you, the client is very fussy. I also being scold by her. It's normal."
....Tears rolling down.....

Aih....
Stupidity covers my whole brain..

I still rushing the work.
And knowing my work is correct but I am not confident enough to confront and stand on my belief that I am right.
The client just chomped down all my words.
And I become speechless.

I am still crying for being stupid, under perform.

And tomorrow I suppose to explain myself infront of the CEO.
What am I putting myself into?

Then I had tonnes of jobs to be completed in office.
Yet I am unable to pull myself out from this demanding job.

Finger crossed my meeting with CEO will go well and I am able to pull out to work on with all my unfinish work in office.

I am still crying....

I am stupid...inefficient...

How can she change my confidence?
I lose my confidence totally...